Dreams
Its 6:32 am and I have just woken up. I had another dream that sent my mind spinning. I am going in so many directions right now. I am trying to shake my self out of the dream state, which after I have a really intense dream takes me a good hour or so. Letting the nicotine course though my system. I have also come to a very interesting realization, DO NOT listen to the Pixies after you have just woke up. Sometimes I feel that the dream world is more real than the real world. I know, this is really cliche, but at least I know that I am no the first person to feel this way.
I normally have two kinds of dreams. “Normal” ones, I guess as normal as dreams come anyways. Ones that I never really remember afterwards. And really intense ones. Dreams that are so vivid, I awake and can’t tell if I have truly woke. This is what I have decided to write about because I just had one and I can’t go back to bed at this point. My intense ones always go two different directions. Love and War. Mostly war. I’ve dreamt about best friends killing me, best friends killing other friends, black hobos sucking my eyes out, multiple dreams about being in what seems like Viet Nam, World War 2 and Desert Storm. I’ve murdered, been murdered and watched people get murdered. If it’s violent, I have had a dream about it. Sometimes I feel that this is “more” than the life I live. It is so wrong to me, but at the same time I know that this is what is right. The feelings of this being more real usually leaves along with the “Dream” state of mind I wake up in. As the course of things go, there are exceptions. And this definitely has it’s exceptions.
The more rare but more welcomed dreams I have are the ones the deal with love. I have only told this to my friend Mike, I have dreams that involve the same person every time. This girl who’s face I never get to remember. When ever I dream about her the dream starts off sort of where the last one I had left off. I just had one tonight and the last one I had about her was at least a year ago. I have read a few spirituality books, and one book referenced this directly. The lady said that in your dreams you return to Heaven and visit your soul mate, who stays in heaven to watch over you. You and your soul mate take turns living on Earth. You never really meet your soul mate until both of you have learned enough to not return to Earth, and this is the reward you get. To spend eternity with your soul mate. Some people believe that dreams are prophetic, others believe that they are your just your brain processing the tons of information received during the day. One interesting thing I have learned, whether its true or not(wikipedia), is that the Pineal Gland is responsible for dreams. The Pineal Gland controls your wake/sleep cycles. It also releases chemicals into your body. Chemicals that make you hallucinate, chemicals that are only released while you are dreaming. Even more interesting is that the Pineal Gland in most lower vertebrate animals have a strong resemblance to the photo receptor cells of the eye. In most of these animals, direct light to the Pineal Gland will completely throw off the animals Circadian Rhythm. Which is 24 hour cycle that your body keeps. Even some early vertebrate skull fossils show a Pineal foramen(an opening). Many people think that this is really our third eye.
I don’t believe any of this really, although I find it all really interesting. I think it is just my subconscious trying to fill for what I either want or need. Every one wants to be loved, thats just human nature. There are somethings in life that every single person has in common and one such thing is the need for other people, to some extent. And for the war thing, I must play to many video games. All those hours of staying up, mindlessly killing blobs and aliens have finally caught up with me.
Mike V.
